I rarely talk to others about God, the Bible or any part of my religious beliefs. Is it because I’m afraid others will disagree? Is it because I’m embarrassed in some way? Is it because I’m not confident in what I have been taught?
I think the most honest answer is I don’t want to be held ACCOUNTABLE. If I say I am a Christian and my actions don’t match my words I become a stumbling block. I become the excuse for someone else not to live according to God’s word.
I can’t go to work and witness to others about how God has changed my life but they see no change. Do I show others the love of God? Am I committed…to anything or anyone?
The truth is God has changed my life in so many ways. He continually provides for my family. Doors of opportunity and blessings are opening up for us and I’m excited about the future. Do I openly give God credit?
I’m surrounded by genuine people that outwardly express their love for God and they minister to others. Why don’t I?
A lot of things I do are based on convenience. My pastor recently preached about this accountability problem and I’ve been meaning to write it about for over a week now. His topic was “It’s time to start acting like a Christian- You’ve been warned!”.
2 Timothy 4:1-5 (HCSB version)
“I solemnly charge you before God and Christ Jesus, who is going to judge the living and the dead, and because of His appearing and His kingdom: Proclaim the message; persist in it whether convenient or not; rebuke, correct, and encourage with great patience and teaching. For the time will come when they will not tolerate sound doctrine, but according to their own desires, will multiply teachers for themselves because they have an itch to hear something new. They will turn away from hearing the truth and will turn aside to myths. But as for you, be serious about everything, endure hardship, do the work of an evangelist, fulfill your ministry.”
Living for God isn’t convenient. It’s hard. But it’s worth it, right?
Be serious about everything – I can’t possibly be serious about my walk with God if I’m not dependable to those who may need my help at church. I can’t be serious about showing the love of God if I don’t even tell others about His existence.
Fulfill your ministry – I’ve been going to church way too long not to know exactly what my purpose is. I believe there is a reason for me. I’m just having a hard time identifying it.
Long story short…I’m trying. I’m trying to be the woman of God I know I’m supposed to be but I need to stop hiding in fear because of potential failures. It’s not fair to God, not fair to my family and it’s not fair to the people out there that I come in contact with.
Forgive me for my selfishness.
Someone asked me not too long ago…
“Holly, what would happen if you were a devout Christian?”
I think I’m finally ready to try and find out.